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Hey Bloggers! Or browsers, don’t really care whichever...
It’s just been AGES since I updated…well duh, seeing as I have no access to blogging in JAK but anyways I’ve missed it.
Home for summer break (and of course Ramadan), loads of family at home so that’s good.
Heck it can be nauseatingly LOUD but remember I haven’t seen half of them for a year so I’m savouring it. Got whole other year coming up, Can’t Wait!
Love being at home, the homey food, Library, no curfew, no bed-check, no packed out schedule, my family here and not to mention my mobile! Internet! And BOOKS!!!!! Time to just indulge and READ!!!!
Love it, but we all have to head back to reality and for that I don’t mind going back, I like knowing I’m utilising the time I’ve been given and getting knowledge that I know is Invaluable. I just wish I had appreciated last year as much as I should have Time just Flies!!!!
We all have those moment somewhere in our lives were we get smacked in the face by Reality. Or maybe it’s like a glass of fizzy pop splashed upon your head….or more like the glass going TWACK! upon my head and shattering the hopes that live there.
The reason I suppose for so much comparison is that I’m referring to my JAK end-of-year results and my AS results, both events had there unique Bashing (so to say).
Let me just say JAK results brought my studies into perspective ( hope its long-lived) and the AS results made me feel like I’d just been dumped…or maybe like I’m spinning on one of those play-ground spinning thing (you know what I mean)…not only is nauseating and dizzying but leaving you with a view of the world spinning, your feet no longer planted on the ground, your eyes only wanting to shut, block out the view, block out what can’t be deciphered. You’re in a Limbo and you don’t feel like getting into grips with reality again, you don’t want to….but SMASH goes that glass of fizzy pop and reality HITS, you know you Have to do something about your life, its not enough to want to become better or changer you life, you have to actually go DO it.
*breathe, breathe* lol so that’s just the glazing of the ice-burg. God I’m a mess of blocked up intention, emotion and desires. Those targets I’ve set myself, yet can’t bring into focus, like I can’t find my internal binoculars. That tension up in my brain that can’t be resting because I don’t want to take it out, only for it to unravel into all the problems I fear. Call me coward but its true that saying ‘Ignorance is bliss’.
Actually another comes in mind, one more appropriate: “Denial is the most effective coping mechanism”, like my brain just doesn’t want to go there, and my minds just keep putting off the inevitable. Oh well we all have a way to channel our distress in other field like for me major cleaning/organising. I’d say reading but that’s more like ignoring the problem not channelling it.
Now that really is enough for today,
Peace
Sammy x
Damn right sparks will fly!

Whhhhaaaaoooooooowwwwww THREEE FOLLOWERS I'm feeling kinda self conscious now loool jokes (welll kinda.... :D) but im still gonna write the usual rubbish i write i find it not only fun and rather therapeutic but also -after looking over a published entry- feel a sense of inner satisfaction ...and maybe even pride if the post has brought out a creative part of me :)
So anyways Thanks! to my followers I'll try not to waste your time! But if i do, what does one typically expect of a 16 year old girl?? :D [....but 17 in 2 months and 4 days, no I'm not counting but i did for this entry :D i just didn't wnt to write '2 and a bit' cause it's 4 DAYS!!! :))
So I finally got hold of substantial, good lasting Internet connection cause as its Ramadan the modems been turned off, my mums SO right everyone practically hugs the net lol I'm so glad I've got this laptop. However the effect of no Internet are really cool because now instead of hugging the comp or the ps3...or the psp...or the tv... or the dvds (lmao...) we all sit together playing boardgames and UNO and my personal fave: Finger on the Trigger. Which is Absolutely GREAT and totally random when playing with my eldest brother, i don't think he knows what fair game is. Oh! speaking of my big bro i ALMOST (and i say Almost because it was a draw...barely) thrashed him in Draughts and i had a long standing winning steak of Connect 4 Woooohooo i just love winning. And trust me when you have 6 (might i add Elder?) Brothers you learn to be ruthless *evil smile* looool
Not that im evil! *smirk* lol after all if 6 bros have that influence on me then my 5 sisters should equal it out.... kinda looool talking bout my sisters ALL 6 OFF US are together at home for the first time in ages!!! OK maybe not ages (since I certainly haven't lived through much...) but a Long time. And the best thing is its just so nice to talk none stop rubbish with them and staying up late attempting Sudoku but truly just trying to annoy everyone but Hey! You can be the youngest child of 12 and NOT have the irresistible urge to ANNOY looool
Oh i cant believe i forgot! My GCSE results. Which where by no standard the highest marks but seeing as i was totally p****** at most of the faculty by the end of my Year 11 and i just plain out couldn't be bothered to put my 2 cents worth in; the results where pretty good. I got *Eyes Wide* a A in English, 5 B's in Maths (SMILE!!), Science (double award so x2), Eng Lit and Textiles (Wtf??? loll at least Ab's is happy). The 2 C's in Urdu and RS and finally History were i got a D. loool i can just imagine what my history teacher would say to me if i met her again... :S
So i know, not the most sparkling results considering my cousin got FOUR A*'s, 3 A's and a B and C. Which BTW she almost cried over LMAO! just imagine she had got a D in history :p [Coookieeeee: if your reading this i hope you comment ;) and p.s. i Love you 2! :D )
Oh and then theres my other cousin (aka Soookie) who got 2 A*'s, 6 A's and a B. But the honest truth is - and i do mean in REAL true honesty- I'm not put out by my grades if i had got better yes it would have bee a great thing to brag about LMAO but I'm satisfied. Which is what IMO truly counts. Conformity of no grade, no statistic and no stereotype can make one feel as satisfied as conforming to ones own decisions. and taking apt responsibility. Hey! I'm not saying dont't get excellent results and don't revise i'm implying (in my own weird way) that to me if you don't enjoy it I see no reason to do it. Just like I REALLLY enjoyed revising for Maths i would actually sit for 4-5 continuous hours in the same position going over maths exam question and didn't get bord once! (only leg cramps) ...because it's something i personally wanted to do.
And anyone who knows me knows i'm not one to study, not only was i not a fan of school (unless you read or watch fiction where it actually looks pretty cool) but i just don't like rules unless i see a honest to god justification behind them. I also have a thing with authority add that to my Stubborn GENE TRAIT!!! =] and you have a recipe for.... welll I'm not sure but not good lool
Great thing was my sisters got me the latest Julia Quinn: What Happens In London (which btw is a Great read!) and a bra set in my old school colors ( *shudder* not cool guys but Thanks all the same!) for my results.
For those who should be starting school round about now Good luck!
xox Sammy

Just came back from the park and it was like soooo cool! seriously its all done new unlike Nuneaton which has like the lamest parks but whatever. It started to spit then rain but we carried on playing it felt cool. I took pictures but since I Left my USB wire at home i cant upload them till anther time. So till then. Raees rang me while I was there and she was like 'I haven't heard from you in ages! I didn't know if you where alive or dead!' and yes, that is a quote. LOL so Raees if you reading this tou'll know that i'm still alive in the Cyberworld and while at my sister's I am also not so sure if i was a home... =] unfortunately
Since I went library yesterday I've almost finished my third book Ive got like three others left to go then I'm heading back =] God, that reminds me I still need to go school shopping and I even though I'm trying to block all things school-related from my mind Raees asked me if i had 'done any homework?' to which of coarse the reply was 'Naa, you?'...Reply: 'Naa' LOL No wonder your such a great friend Raees! You rock!
Anyways the books two books I finished reading yesterday and the third I'm reading at the moment are WICCA or SWEEP (as you might know them as) by Cate Tiernan. Thres another SWEEP fan site that's cool, just click this.
They're real cool and bring back old memories. If you haven't read them then I suggest you try them out. I also got out This Lullaby by Sarah Desssen, it was recommended in a vlog on YouTube by StacyAnne so I'll check it out later. It looks good though so maybe more on that later I need to go out tea on... C ya.
This to books, what on earth would I do without them?