Im Back!!!!

So I'm back for a week! I love holidays and i plan to just be lazy, shop and use the net... It feels weird though cause at JAK we use all are time real constructively, like; wake up, Fajr, breakfast, dars, lunch, Zuhr, 6-Form, motala (homework session), dinner, kidmat, Esha then 10:30 bed-chek thats the scedual from Mon to Fri. And i love it because you start to utilise all your time wisely and learn to make time aswell. Plus that jolt of responsibility and Independence is a eye-opener.
All that said, I'm looking forward to this week of uselessness.

First thing on the Agenda:
Home: Be with my mum as much a possible <3 And eat as much home food as possible!
Town: Badly want a camera (miss my old one SO much!), so that inshallah will be the first thing i spend my untouched EMA on... =)
Mates: Hang out with Sarah&Saj (a.k.a. Sooki&Cookie) Miss them guys too much <3
Misc: Read, Read and Facebook! loool

Well that's the really water-down list.


But the thing 'bout being in JAK you learn the reality of life but you forget the reality of the living. And for that i thank God for the fact its only 2 year because as much as i love JAK, i really do. Love it that it. I don't want to become so veiled that i am no longer able to relate to my source, my family, my mates and most of all the world. That being said i want to enjoy the 2 years as much as i can, to squeeze out all that i can and hope to come out a better person for I've been told again and again (including my past school-self) that time flies. Like my brother wrote in his letter to me 'time waits for no one' and he should know he spent 11 years studying and now he's graduated and life still goes on...


....on a trivial note-for i have so much tension within me my hands are shaking Really badly, i hope it's from the cold but it usually happens when I'm really uneasy, my mind won't stop churning- I would like to say its nice being back! I love home and my family, no matter what were going though now we have faith and I pray so much we'll get though everything as better. more worthy people Ameen.

Well that didn't come out to trivial but I'll try next time.

Loads of love and faith ,
xoSammy

Games...GCSE's....Gifts and g'Thanks! =)

Whhhhaaaaoooooooowwwwww THREEE FOLLOWERS I'm feeling kinda self conscious now loool jokes (welll kinda.... :D) but im still gonna write the usual rubbish i write i find it not only fun and rather therapeutic but also -after looking over a published entry- feel a sense of inner satisfaction ...and maybe even pride if the post has brought out a creative part of me :)

So anyways Thanks! to my followers I'll try not to waste your time! But if i do, what does one typically expect of a 16 year old girl?? :D [....but 17 in 2 months and 4 days, no I'm not counting but i did for this entry :D i just didn't wnt to write '2 and a bit' cause it's 4 DAYS!!! :))

So I finally got hold of substantial, good lasting Internet connection cause as its Ramadan the modems been turned off, my mums SO right everyone practically hugs the net lol I'm so glad I've got this laptop. However the effect of no Internet are really cool because now instead of hugging the comp or the ps3...or the psp...or the tv... or the dvds (lmao...) we all sit together playing boardgames and UNO and my personal fave: Finger on the Trigger. Which is Absolutely GREAT and totally random when playing with my eldest brother, i don't think he knows what fair game is. Oh! speaking of my big bro i ALMOST (and i say Almost because it was a draw...barely) thrashed him in Draughts and i had a long standing winning steak of Connect 4 Woooohooo i just love winning. And trust me when you have 6 (might i add Elder?) Brothers you learn to be ruthless *evil smile* looool

Not that im evil! *smirk* lol after all if 6 bros have that influence on me then my 5 sisters should equal it out.... kinda looool talking bout my sisters ALL 6 OFF US are together at home for the first time in ages!!! OK maybe not ages (since I certainly haven't lived through much...) but a Long time. And the best thing is its just so nice to talk none stop rubbish with them and staying up late attempting Sudoku but truly just trying to annoy everyone but Hey! You can be the youngest child of 12 and NOT have the irresistible urge to ANNOY looool

Oh i cant believe i forgot! My GCSE results. Which where by no standard the highest marks but seeing as i was totally p****** at most of the faculty by the end of my Year 11 and i just plain out couldn't be bothered to put my 2 cents worth in; the results where pretty good. I got *Eyes Wide* a A in English, 5 B's in Maths (SMILE!!), Science (double award so x2), Eng Lit and Textiles (Wtf??? loll at least Ab's is happy). The 2 C's in Urdu and RS and finally History were i got a D. loool i can just imagine what my history teacher would say to me if i met her again... :S

So i know, not the most sparkling results considering my cousin got FOUR A*'s, 3 A's and a B and C. Which BTW she almost cried over LMAO! just imagine she had got a D in history :p [Coookieeeee: if your reading this i hope you comment ;) and p.s. i Love you 2! :D )

Oh and then theres my other cousin (aka Soookie) who got 2 A*'s, 6 A's and a B. But the honest truth is - and i do mean in REAL true honesty- I'm not put out by my grades if i had got better yes it would have bee a great thing to brag about LMAO but I'm satisfied. Which is what IMO truly counts. Conformity of no grade, no statistic and no stereotype can make one feel as satisfied as conforming to ones own decisions. and taking apt responsibility. Hey! I'm not saying dont't get excellent results and don't revise i'm implying (in my own weird way) that to me if you don't enjoy it I see no reason to do it. Just like I REALLLY enjoyed revising for Maths i would actually sit for 4-5 continuous hours in the same position going over maths exam question and didn't get bord once! (only leg cramps) ...because it's something i personally wanted to do.

And anyone who knows me knows i'm not one to study, not only was i not a fan of school (unless you read or watch fiction where it actually looks pretty cool) but i just don't like rules unless i see a honest to god justification behind them. I also have a thing with authority add that to my Stubborn GENE TRAIT!!! =] and you have a recipe for.... welll I'm not sure but not good lool

Great thing was my sisters got me the latest Julia Quinn: What Happens In London (which btw is a Great read!) and a bra set in my old school colors ( *shudder* not cool guys but Thanks all the same!) for my results.

For those who should be starting school round about now Good luck!

xox Sammy

Sugar Rush....or simply Rush

A funny day today.... it started good; I woke up early for once (its the holidays!!! :D) Anyways the weird thing was the house was quiet and i mean as in run-into-no-one-and-hear-nothing-Quiet which is Extremely odd as my sister (and hubby) are currently over with their four (LOUD) kids and so is my bro.... so I hop into the kitchen feeling all happy make a cup of tea then go to my room and enjoy it and just for the sake of it i'm callin up Sookie and Cookie to wake them up looool let me tell you THAT was FUUUNNNN after all its 9 o'clock =D

Then ofcousre the house becomes alive apparently evryone was in my mums room talking....how the hell didn't i hear any of that....cause trust my family is anything but quiet, God, i love them all So much <3.

One time went to town with S&C and that is amazing we always end up going town 1 hour later....but seeing as i was Mizz-Raise-An-Shine today i (literally) started their day early with the sounds of metal spoon CLANGING on metal saucepans =] God, that was Fuuuuunnnn....sookie got bare pissed *Big Wide Grin Invades My Face* lool.

But the weird thing is we went Library (a Must) then WHSmith (which BTW has a Great sale on stationary ATM), popped into The Body Shop and then hit Costa....and then that's all. Yup just went home cant believe i went to like one shop but spent like an hour in Costa reading Lisa Kleypas's Devil In Winter (for the 70th time...this year) and listening to S&C discuss the articles of (God Help Me!) The Evening Telegraph. Not that i have a problem with TET but cum on it's Costa and in their selection of Newspapers is -get this... The Evening Telegraph; The Mirror, The Star; The Nuneaton Telegraph and FINALLY The Times. ONE broad sheet in mass of tabloids...what happened to The FT, The Guardian and my personal favourite The Independent???

Oh well onto the next stage of my (albeit boring life) day: When my sister went home I spent the time annoying everyone by lounging on the sofa, making weird sounds and singing what ever came to my head...basically celebrating the fact that I'm back to being the youngest in the house =DD

This random post goes to Sookie, Cookie and My family LOVE you all loads and loads and loads

xoxo Sammy

IM BACK!!!! ...with waffle(s?) :D

You may not understand this post, it may seem a load of waffle but in truth its part soundboard and part therapeutic :D

I haven't frequented this blog in awhile... actually the bare truth is I've shamefully neglected it but I'm going to start updating *fingers crossed* REGULARLY.

That is until I'm off to boarding school but even then I'm going to try and make the time. I wonder if we're allowed on the Internet there? Probably not seeing as we're not even allowed mobiles, mp3 or 'novels, magazines' talk bout deprivation... But oh well it was my choice to go and I'm so glad i got accepted...even if i did kinda scare the women who was interviewing me by talking too much *cringe*. But that what happens when I'm nervous but WOOHOOO term starts on October 4th so Again WOOHOOO like FOUR MONTHS holiday and it's just so fun shopping for all my supplies. Can't help it man, it very 'retail therapy'...and i can't believ i just said that cause I'm usually the pessimistic one who would give a explanation (plus examples) on how retail therapy if false...which it is but I'm trying to think happy right now so SMILE!!!!! =DD


Lool that was so weird.
Till my next blog lots of love Sammy x

Shopping for Leaving Presents

Last week of Easter hols and I'm trying to buy all the leaving presents seeing as I have 2 weeks left of school then study-leave (which includes WHY too many GCSE exams). I went town today especially because there's market on Wednesdays, and some of those markets are rather exotic with merchandise from around the world; really interesting things. However I didn't even reach the market! I got as far as the shopping centre and that took me ages and the waked thing is I haven't even brought half the things I need to get. I just draw a blank! Why on earth can't my mates have a set interest aside from music and make-up? Its so annoying. O.k. maybe I'm not being fair two like me enjoy photography, art and books but the rest are pretty blanked :@
Bad news I have to go tomorrow as well.... AND I have homework to do now.

~To the end of school which can't come soon enough.

Hectic As Can Be...or am I saying that too early?

God it really has been a long, LONG time since I last blogged. You see I just read back a cupola entry's and theirs me going on about Khansa giving birth to Maariya (who is absolutely gorgeous BTW). While now its been so long (or its probably my insanely large family) that I have another niece and another nephew...


Crap. LOLz its all I can say. Actually I can say that its great and it is, its fun but hectic especially at times like this, where I've got my bloody GCSE's and my brothers getting married in a months time. Exactly a month, now I come to think of it, its the 11th and his weddings on April 11th. F*** this is just to fast. Now not only do I have the 14th niece or nephew (Yes, another on the way...thankfully it's due around October...) but I'm also gonna have another sister-in-law. And I haven't even brought any shoes!!!! For the big day I mean. I love what I'm gonna wear though (IA). Its getting made but its long, maroon and gold with an empire waste. That's for the Walima (the second day). On the wedding day I'm wearing Silver....and crap! I still need to go get a bag for it!

Now this is what I mean when I say hectic:

• Two babies born 2o days apart (my Bro's named Aamina; and my Sister's first son named Muhammed),
  
• G.C.S.E's (revision, coursework, homework...pressure),
  
• a very close wedding,
  
• shopping for end-of-year gifts
• and so, so much more.... Welcome to my life. Youngest of 12 and the aged 16. Need I say more? :p (the 16 part gives allowance to any melodrama...LOL)

This I'll give to the dodgy dynamics of love and all that it implies.

xo Sammy

So...Wheres my lost Duke?

The Lost Duke of Wyndham by Julia Quinn came out today!




... In the US

Well that pops my balloon... *Sad sigh*

However that fact that I couldn't order it (I'll talk of this new resolution another time; its long and deserves a entry of its own - no matter how... un-new (?) it becomes) really started to kill me cuz everyone knows: I LOVE buying BOOKS!!! EBay it, Amazon it, Que at midnight I'm there!

Anyways back to my story. I was saved from sudden (well slow) death (Melodramatic or what?) when at the last moment -yup a straining ONE day before release -Monday 26th May- My sister Khansa pre-ordered it!!! WOOHOO!!! And you guessed it, I'm next (Why does she have to live in Birmingham?) But coming from the US its estimated arrival is the 20th June. Finger-crossed that it will come WAY before then...

of June the answer is the stores in You may ask why I (cross that out Shali!) don't just buy it from UK since it comes out on the 5th Nuneaton don't get new books from JQ an till WAT after publication date. I'm pained to say that shes just not as famous as McEwan and Roberts - In my opinion she should be; shes great! And I recommend her to anyone.

With a new bubble or did I use balloon?

x peace x

P.S.: A Interesting fact: In TLDOW the Dukes family surname is Cavendish. And you as you know i went to Chatsworth a couple of days ago, so guess what? The (who live there) surname is ALSO Cavendish. Duke and Duchess of DevonshireCoincidence? I think not.

But if you look at it Quinn has a imagination so she must have thought of it on her own well unless she like me saw what a beauty Chatsworth is and inspiration struck ( ...like Jane Austen's 'Pembely'. Which any fan of austen knows was inspired by chatsworth).